Perspective:

My roommate is getting married in two days. I will be in New York in three days and in 7 weeks I will be done with my freshman year of college. A lot is happening in a short time. So, I've been reflecting on time spent.

I was expecting a lot of things this year. I had come from my high school years that I loved. I had a solid group of friends, lots of responsibility and a lot of memories to last me. I was expecting to experience God in a magnificent way. I was expecting to be completely in line with His will, to be purged of past sin. But, I haven't. I haven't witnessed His incredible work in my life. At least not as I expected.

I have been watching, hearing, listening and reading all about my friend's lives. Knowing that God is doing amazing work in all of them and I was beginning to feel left behind. Overwhelmed by the feeling of having not accomplished anything, grown in any way, I began believing that I was not doing what I needed to in order for God to turn his face towards me.

But, in stillness he breathed, "let me love you". He has said before, "Be still and know that I am God." He is God. He is God. I am just a person. But, yet, I am His. So, now perspectives are changing.

God is stripping me clean, he is doing a new work in me. He is restoring places long devestated. (Isaiah 61). For now only I can sit and be with Him. Lean back and breathe. He is beginning to show me that I have nothing in my being to give to him. I am nothing, really. Empowered only by and through his spirit. I realize that this work He is doing, will be a long road.

So, today, God is responsible and attentive.